An awfully big adventure

[intertext]

I always thought I'd keep my life at some distance from this journal, but I find now that I can't keep up the cheery facade of memes and chitchat. Thing is, my mum has terminal cancer and probably only weeks to live. And that's what my life is right now. The past several months - all last term really, for those on the academic schedule - she's been ill, and I've known she's been ill, but it's only this week that it's been confirmed for sure that this is what's happening. It's a relief in a way to have it out in the open and to know what's going on and to have something to shake a fist at instead of what has been constant grinding anxiety. I'm dumping all but one of my courses for the rest of the term and now have to learn to face a world without the person I've been caring for for the last 15 years. And of course have loved for all my years. She's my friend, not just my mum, and I'm going to miss her. Badly.

Comments

[pickledginger.livejournal.com]

My sympathies. Best wishes for the time she has left.

[gillo]

My dear, I'm so sorry. Try to make the next few weeks as special as you can for you and your mum, even in tiny ways - you need to work hard to build up a store of positive memories to counteract the bad times.

It's trite to say *hugs*, an easy internet convention, but you really do have all my sympathy. We haven't known each other long, but already I like and respect you and wish this cup could be taken from you. God bless.

[oursin.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear this. Sympathy, and good thoughts.

[noveldevice.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry to hear this. I'll be thinking good thoughts for both of you.

[ellarien]

I'm sorry, and you will be in my thoughts.

[alecto23.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I hope you enjoy this last time you have with your mother as much as you can.

And never feel bad for not having cheer to put in your journal; it's your journal, after all.