Going back to Cry Cry Cry these last few weeks. I'm so obsessed with the storytelling in the music, especially the percussion (and some kind of drone?) around 2:54 to 3:20, before the mandoline comes back in.
Going back to Cry Cry Cry these last few weeks. I'm so obsessed with the storytelling in the music, especially the percussion (and some kind of drone?) around 2:54 to 3:20, before the mandoline comes back in.

Challenge #3: Write a love letter to fandom.
John Green says of going to home games for AFC Wimbledon, "I'm with 8,000 people whose love is oriented in the same direction as mine." That, to me, is fandom. It's a group of people who have oriented their love in a similar direction, whether that's toward a show or an actor or a band or a character or a hobby or something else entirely. (Honestly, love oriented in the same direction might be foundational to almost all human-built institutions, and the problem with some of them is that the object of their love doesn't inspire pro-social behavior, but that's outside the scope of this post.) It doesn't matter what the object of the love is so much as the way that all that love aimed at a similar place amplifies itself, like vector multiplication.
The funny thing is, the way I do fandom these days, It's almost less about the object of the fandom and more about the idea of fandom, the love and the passion it inspires. Which is not to say that I'm not in some fandoms. I'm very active in Star Trek fandom, and love hanging out with people who love it with me. It's always fun to find people who share some of my other current interests like Sherlock Holmes, Murder She Wrote, Superman, and Jane Austen, or to reminisce happily with people who remember the loves that I'm less active in but still remember fondly like X-Files and Stargate.
But there are definitely people in fandom spaces with whom I share no fandoms, and I still enjoy their company, because they're doing the fandom thing too. That is, they're passionate about something, and so passionate that they want to talk about the thing, and make more of the thing, and put their joy and passion into the world so that other people can share it. Elsewhere on this year's snowflake, someone mentioned how much they love seeing someone be passionate about something, even if they don't share that passion. I like that. It is a joy to see humans be happy and excited about things they love, and to be unabashedly passionate about them.
Let people enjoy things has become a meme, almost a cliche, but that's because it so often needs to be said. Fandom at its best is a safe place where people are allowed to enjoy things without mockery or disdain, and in a world where that is all too often not the case, that's a very valuable thing.
I have elevenish favorites this year (I combined books in series, because I make the rules). My top book, which is no big secret as I've been shouting about it for months, is the only one ranked; the rest are here in alphabetical order.
( Favorite Books )
( The numbers and musings )
That's a wrap on 2025! If you read any of my favorites and have readalikes, I'm always hyped for recs. If you wrote a favorites post for your SFF reading, I'd love to see it (and then link it in Intergalactic Mixtape, haha).
You know how sometimes you look at a word or phrase you’ve known all your life and suddenly wonder about it? That happened to me with by and large, and it turns out to have such an unexpected background I thought I’d post it. OED (entry from 1933):
1. Nautical. To the wind (within six points; cf. by prep. A.I.ii.7) and off it.
1669 Thus you see the ship handled in fair weather and foul, by and learge.
S. Sturmy, Mariners Magazine 17
[…]2. In one direction and another, all ways; now esp., in a general aspect, without entering into details, on the whole.
1707 Tho’ he trys every way, both by and large, to keep up with his Leader.
E. Ward, Wooden World Dissected 351769 Miss Betsey, a charming frigate, that will do honour to our country, if you take her by and large.
in Southern Lit. Mess. vol. XVII. 183/2
[…]
The relevant senses are by 1.d. “Nautical. Close to the wind. Chiefly and earliest in full and by” (c1500 “What worde to sey, he [sc. the loodsman] is in doute, Eyther warae the lof, or ells full and by”; 2001 “With a foul wind, the boat was sailed full and by, and estimates made of the deviation from the direct track”) and large III.18. “Nautical. Of a wind: crossing the line of the ship’s course in a favourable direction, esp. on the beam or quarter” (1578 “Hauing a large winde, we kept our course vppon our saide voyage”; 1984 “With the wind large, and the yard braced in a little, it [sc. the tack] lay directly under the yard”). I expect AntC already knew this, but nautical terms are mare incognitum to me.
( Spoilers )
Author: Mary Downing Hahn
Published: HarperCollins, 2007 (1989)
Rating: 2.5 of 5
Page Count: 130
Total Page Count: 557,180
Text Number: 2095
Read Because: spotted here, ebook borrowed from the Multnomah County Library
Review: A girl finds an antique doll buried in her new landlady's backyard and ties it to a local haunting. This is indulgently gothic, located largely in its tableaux and concept; the writing is workmanlike, and probably the sort of thing that works best at a certain age, when childhood imagination can expand the bare bones into an atmosphere. But having just read Mahy's The Haunting, I'm particularly aware that MG can do that work itself; it doesn't need to be this bare bones. But they are good bones, particularly the sensitive and compelling depiction of grief.
Question of the day: when dealing with your character's inner monologue, do you tend to favour writing directly reported thoughts (What an idiot, she thought) or indirect thoughts (He was just such an idiot)?
Title: Electric Cowboy
Author: Ansel Kite
Published: Silver Sprocket, 2025
Rating: 4 of 5
Page Count: 50
Total Page Count: 556,625
Text Number: 2089
Read Because: reading the publisher, ebook borrowed from the Multnomah County Library via Hoopla
Review: A short but ineffably dense comic about someone traversing their lover's memory. It demands multiple readings but remains somewhat opaque even then. Is that a flaw? Every page is doing something, often every word, but the sketchiness makes it an effort to close read; but that reading is rewarding, both puzzle-like and intuitively emotional; but, after that work, I don't want to still be grasping. A little cleanup or a few extra pages might not have gone amiss. I love it anyway, particularly the tone, moving fluidly between wonder and horror, love and betrayals. This is particularly impressive as a debut, and reaffirms my admiration of Silver Sprocket as a publisher.
Title: My Body Unspooling
Author: Leo Fox
Published: Silver Sprocket, 2024
Rating: 4 of 5
Page Count: 30
Total Page Count: 556,655
Text Number: 2090
Read Because: reading the publisher/fan of the author, ebook borrowed from the Multnomah County Library via Hoopla
Review: Leo Fox is absolutely Doing Something, and I like it. The length of this perforce constrains it; it's almost a poem, an extended metaphor, figured in Fox's distinctive drippy, trippy art. But I jive with its meditation on the body/mind relationship, the frustrations and needs of corporeality, even if I'd like a stronger reunion, more concrete and justified.
Title: Leftstar and the Strange Occurrence
Author: Jean Fhilippe
Published: Silver Sprocket, 2023
Rating: 2 of 5
Page Count: 90
Total Page Count: 556,745
Text Number: 2091
Read Because: reading the publisher, ebook borrowed from the Multnomah County Library via Hoopla
Review: A creator of worlds finds his work faltering, so goes in search of aid. A debut graphic novel in clean, wobbly monochrome, functioning as a metaphor for creative work (engaging in, finishing, what do creators owe their creations) in unsurprising ways, structured as a fantastical travelogue. That's not a combo that works for me—it's cute, millennial, whimsical vibes, very feel-good, and I don't agree with the conclusions of the running metaphor. But the majority of that is an issue of personal taste; I can see this working well for others.

Catching up on the last two days, because ugh, work. Who thought that was a good idea? XP
Challenge #3: Write a love letter to fandom. It might be to fandom in general, to a particular fandom, favourite character, anything at all.
I love reading people’s responses to this challenge (particular highlights on my flist were
I love fandom ( because fandom is )
Obviously some letters were harder to fill with fandoms than others, but all of this is true, and these are all reasons I love fandom :)
Challenge #4: Rec Your Last Page: Any website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!
Maybe I should go through my billions of open tabs and see if there’s something in there worth reccing? (and take the opportunity to close some, lol)
Relevant open tabs (and the reasons I have them open):
( and 10 more links, from general to specific )
DNW: Change of period or setting; noncon/dubcon; violence against female characters; trashing canonical love interests; romances centering pregnancies, babies, or kids; explicit art.
( Flight of the Heron )
( Mr Rowl )
( The Wounded Name )
( Kidnapped )
( Captains Courageous )
( Hornblower novels )
( Hornblower TV )
( Doctor Odyssey )
( Jill )
( Vorkosigan Saga )
This afternoon, while I was hiding from work and feeling sorry for myself because of a worsening headache,
angelofthenorth asked me "So how was The Moonwalkers?"
I then talked for like fifteen minutes without stopping.
Oops.
I figured she'd have read D's entry about this from last night -- she's good like that -- so ( I started with the accessibility stuff: )
But this wasn't a huge problem, I was busy being excited about space.
"For 45 minutes I forgot about the world's problems," D said. I love that!
I...did not.
One of the Artemis II astronauts who was interviewed for this movie said something about Apollo being "ahead of its time" and immediately I was grumpily thinking no it's not! we're behind ours! JFK referencing the Wright Brothers made me ponder that it was about sixty years from them to the moonwalks, and it's been another sixty years since! What do we have to show for ourselves? (Lots of other things, I know, but no one's even left Earth orbit! Yes the ISS is cool but it's reaching the end of its lifetime, and it's still Soyuz ferrying people to and from! The splashdowns look beautiful and poetic at the end of a movie like this but where are our goddam spaceplanes?!)
Basically, everything I have to say about that I said in 2011 when the only thing more modern than Soyuz ceased operation and in 2012 when Neil Armstrong died.
But since I couldn't just link
angelofthenorth to things in a real-life conversation, I had to attempt to re-create those thoughts and everything that links into them: my waning interest in "space" as the 2010s went on and SpaceX got increasingly dull (to me, I am not a rocket man) and -- even before it became so tainted by its association with Elon Musk -- depressing as a symbol of yet another thing being left to private whims which I believe is a public good. The only thing about these old entries that I wince to read tonight is my optimism and naïveté, but while I'm sad for my younger self I'm not ashamed of having those things.
Anyway. Like I said I probably talked for fifteen entire minutes without a break. I wasn't even self-conscious about it, until the end.
Luckily (?)
angelofthenorth said it was cute, and endearing.
Relationship: Frenchie/izzy
Rating: Mature
Word Count: ~1300
Content Info: AU: Izzy Hands Lives
Summary: The crew puts in for repairs at what turns out to be a bioluminescent bay, but Izzy and Frenchie aren't messing around with any Natural Phenomena. Or, the one where Izzy appreciates Frenchie's cynicism.
Notes: Written for
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Relationship: Izzy/Crew (most notably Lucius, Frenchie, Wee John, Archie, Fang, and Jim, and a reference to a past with Ed)
Rating: Mature
Word Count: ~1900
Content Info: AU: Izzy Hands Lives
Summary: Fifty one-sentence stories for fifty prompts, following Izzy’s post-series life aboard the Revenge.
1. Swords
The love of a crew can’t change him into something he isn’t, but their hands right his edges like a whetstone and their words leave behind the gleam of oil on steel.
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We got off to a slow start: most of our readings were pretty minimal, and many of us (including me) got frustrated and started doing a bunch of extra reading, just to get a better grounding in the time of place. Consequently, I lagged on doing monthly posts: in a lot of cases, I didn't have much to say until I'd finished my supplementary reading. So here, have it all at once!
Assigned plus supplemental readings from September through December, minus one book I'm still working my way through. Pre-Conquest (i.e., pre-1521) through 1649.
Camilla Townsend, Fifth Sun: A New History of the Aztecs (2019)
What it says on the tin! Episodic history of the Mexica from their coming to the Valley of Mexico through the first century after the Spanish conquest, drawing primarily on Nahautl-language sources. Each chapter begins with a fictionalized epigram of a key moment in a historical figure's life, then spends the chapter itself expanding on the historical context. Very much intended to be a Mexica-pov history, Townsend's primary sources are Nahautl annals, the most useful of which are discussed in an appendix. She is careful to point out where the annals are ambiguous or contradictory, or what aspects of a narrative rely on inference, or are found only in Spanish-language sources, or are just plain conjecture, which I appreciate.
I found this a good read, and a satisfying introduction to Mexica culture and history.
Frances F. Berdan and Patricia Rieff Anawalt (eds.), Codex Mendoza (1541/1992)
On its own, this was relatively dry: neither the original glyphic writing nor the Spanish nor English translations were that compelling. (Although it is cool to see how significant items such as shells, rubber balls, and feathers were as tribute.) But when taken with this next work...
Gordon Whittaker, Deciphering Aztec Hieroglyphs: A Guide to Nahautl Writing (2021)
Not assigned for the course/bookclub, but I very much wish it had been. One of the lectures on the Codex Mendoza invited us to try to interpret its heiroglyphs on our own, without any instruction. When in fact it is more than a rebus writing system! There are many non-literal conventions! Some glyphs are used phonetically, not literally! Some glyphs have multiple meanings! Glyphs have multiple forms and the different forms mean different things! AGH.
( Thorough introduction to Mexican glyphic writing. )
Great book, hugely recommended, sometimes a bit more technical than I could quite grasp, it helps if you already speak some Nahautl (but Whittaker teaches you most of the Nahautl you need to know to follow the text), and lots and lots and lots of glossy full color illustrations and scans or photographs of various codices and carvings.
James Lockhart (ed. and trans.), We People Here: Nahautl Accounts of the Conquest of Mexico (late 1500s / 1993)
Translation of several Nahautl-language texts about the Spanish conquest of Mexico. The vast majority of the page count is devoted Book Twelve of the Florentine Codex (La Historia General de las Cosas de Nueva España -- in English, The General History of the Things of New Spain), an encyclopedia compiled by Bernardino de Sahagún during the latter half of the sixteenth century. La Historia General was conceived to fill two primary purposes: to be a primary source for an eventual Nahautl dictionary, and to be an encyclopedia to Mexica culture, to better aid the twin projects of colonization and conversion. In the Florentine Codex, La Historia consists of two parallel texts presented on facing pages, the original Nahautl and a Spanish translation created by Sahagún, plus additional illustrations (which for the most part are European-style illustrations, and not the heiroglyphic texts of earlier Mexica codices). Books 1 through 11 are an encyclopedia of various cultural and natural history topics; Book 12 is a narrative of the Spanish conquest. In We People Here, Lockhart provides side-by-side English translations of both the Nahautl and Sahagún's Spanish translation -- which is fascinating.
( Nahautl and Spanish )
Luis Lasso de la Vega (eds. Lisa Sousa, Stafford Poole and James Lockhart), The story of Guadalupe (1649/1998)
Earliest written account of the story of the Virgin of Guadalupe, set to pen nearly a century after the first written reference to the famous artifact. There's a lot of fascinating context about who wrote it (a white Spaniard) and in what language (Nahautl) and for what purposes (to persuade the Mexica to be more Catholic about their worship at a holy site for the Mexica goddess Tonantzin; to convince the Iberian Spanish elite that the New-Spain Spanish elite were as legitimate as the Iberians and/or should be the new center of the Spanish empire).
Almost none of that context is actually in the story (except its being written in Nahautl, which is made much of at the beginning). Instead, this is the story of Juan Diego, lowly and humble, and the visions that appeared to him, and his attempts to make the Bishop listen. There's some interesting symbolism about Spanish birds and flowers appearing miraculously, but the event we liked best is the part where Juan Diego decided he didn't have time to be harassed by Mary and tried to ghost her, and she called him on it. (And then, very graciously, solved his other problems so that he could return to working on hers.)
One witness told Sahan Journal she saw first responders performing CPR on someone at E. 34th Street and Portland Avenue. The person had blood on their face and in their hair.
by Becky Z. Dernbach, Andrew Hazzard, Katelyn Vue, Shubhanjana Das and Mohamed Ibrahim
https://sahanjournal.com/immigration/federal-shooting-ice-immigration-south-minneapolis-34th-portland/
Much of the talk surrounding the Minnesota governor’s race has focused on Gov. Tim Walz dropping out. And while many Republicans wanted Walz gone, “an early exit from his re-election campaign presents its own challenges,” according to the Minnesota Star Tribune, including how to pivot from a fraud-focused strategy to other issues. Via MinnPost
https://www.startribune.com/after-focus-on-walz-and-fraud-what-comes-next-for-gop-in-governors-race/601558163?utm_source=gift
Axios is reporting that the Trump administration “is freezing $10 billion in funds for child care and poor families in five blue states.” California, Colorado, Illinois, New York and Minnesota have seen these funds suspended, and these five states “will also be asked to provide additional information, including attendance records, inspection reports and complaints from parents.” Via MinnPost
https://www.axios.com/2026/01/05/trump-child-care-minnesota ( Read more... )
1) Agatha Harkness & "Teen" ( spoilery identity is spoilery ) , Agatha All Along: I adored this show in 2024 when it was released and I still adore it, and have rewatched it three times already. There are many reasons why, but the relationship between these two characters is most definitely one of them. It has different layers, not least because the characters are both holding back information about each other and their true reason for the show's quest for a considerable time, and yet they bond in a very real way even before the various reveals. It ends up as mentor/protegé, with a sideline of odd couple and sort of, kind of, family. And I really hope that whatever the MCU future brings, we will see these two together again.
2) Jessica Jones & Matt Murdoch, (The Defenders): speaking of combinations I hope to see again - The big crossover miniseries of the Netflix Marvel shows was flawed in several ways, but the various combinations of characters were all gold, and I loved the Mattt & Jess combo most of all. To put it as unspoilery as possible: their different ways of reaching the top of a building had me in stitches. And the serious character scenes were fantastic. That neither of them was sexually interested in the other might have been why they got along so well, given both characters have a really messy love- and sex life.
3) Tony Stark & Bruce Banner, (The Avengers): their scenes were such an unexpected delight. Very differnet personalities, and yet a meeting of the minds, so to speak, and great chemistry to boot. We hardly saw them in the same room again after Age of Ultron, which I regretted, but given the ensembles grew larger and larger, it was probably inevitable. (Also, the writing for Bruce Banner changed a lot.)
4) Yelena Belova & Alexei Shostakov, (Black Widow, Thunderbolts): I was torn between this and Yelena & Natasha, and Yelena & Kate Bishop, but Alexei wins with a combination of the relationship being showcased in two different movies and the way we see it change through said movies. Also: Alexei may have been a deadbeat (spy) dad, but he can make Yelena smile (intentionally, I mean, not just when he's being goofy) in an incredibly touching way. Again in both movies.
5) Nebula & Gamora (both of them), Guardians of the Galaxy, Avengers: Infinity Wars and Avengers: Endgame: pace Yelena & Natasha, but these are my favourite sisters in the MCU. They get introduced as a seemingly straightforward rendition of bad girl and good bad girl, the evil and the heroic sister - and then it gets complicated. Given their incredibly screwed up childhood and youth (Thanos trying his best to win the worst Dad competition in the MCU), it's a miracle they had non-hostile feelings for each other to begin with, and yet they do. The moment in Guardians 2 when we find out what Thanos did each time Gamora beat Nebula in a match is absolutely gut wrenching. And when we see them connect and change through sevearl movies, it is both touching and absolutely cheerworthy.
6) Mark Spector & Steven Grant, Moon Knight: that they're both played by Oscar Isaacs is the least of it. The miniseries was so clever in the way it introduced us to them which turns certain tropes on their head because ( it gets spoilery )The result is a sort of "unknown and seemingly very different brothers find each other" tale which also manages to be self exploration and offers moments of grace, support and love in the last three episodes that still make me reach for my hankerchief upon rewatch.
Not included: Peggy Carter & Dottie Underwood (Agent Carter), because the subtext is barely sub, and I definitely ship them, which makes them disqualified for a list of platonic relationships (which I want to remain platonic). But they definitely had "my best enemy" potential in that show. And fantastic chemistry.
The other days
It's mostly sensible, but I do get a shudder when I come across phrases like "someone who is permitted to use a wheelchair". Permitted? Really?
I'm not entirely certain about "Mobility Device" as the replacement for "Invalid Carriage", god knows it needs replacing, but I don't get the warm fuzzies over "Mobility Device", though I can't actually think of a better alternative right now.
I can see spats with the cyclists coming over whether we're allowed to use cycle lanes (apparently we're not, not even manual chairs - who knew?!)
The intentions seem good, but there really is the potential for this to go horribly wrong, such as options where you can say any power-assisted chair shouldn't be allowed on the pavement. I'm not convinced this was written by someone who actually understood the full range of power assistance types and how different the capabilities are. I need to think about it, but I think we may need more than three classes of "mobility device".
The consultation's open now, and closes end of March.
