Failing in Another

[intertext]

Well, "failing" is probably not the right word. But I've decided that I don't want to continue with the 50-Book Challenge. I _think_ I would probably have done it (although I'm not absolutely sure), but I'm a bit annoyed with myself that I care, and I think this is one obsessive-compulsive list thing that I just don't want to do. Also, I finding it affecting my reading choices and even pleasure - I was more pissed off than usual if a book I started did not grab me, because it seemed like a waste of time. I've not been rereading, even if I wanted to, because re-reads did not "count." I was choosing not to read something long or difficult because it would set me off my reading schedule.

No.

I just need to stop it. So I'm going to.

Comments

[egret]

Good decision!

I'm willing to keep on listing and failing the challenge as it seems a worthy goal, but I do feel guilty that I'm not reading "enough." I do like having the list though.

[intertext]

Yes - I like having the list. I may continue writing brief entries on the books just to have the record, but it feels good to take the pressure off myself in terms of reaching some kind of "goal." And the trouble is that once I've committed myself to such a task, I'm terribly ocd about it. So I need to give myself permission to stop.